Eye of the Tiger

For you "older" readers (haha) you know how the song and how it motivates you... That is where I am.. I'm not kidding, I let myself get physically sick and emotionally drained last week anticipating our Dr. appt. It's crazy... it took the weekend to rebuild myself.. I'm so over it!!! After speaking with other cancer peeps.. I find that that is totally normal.. but it's not my style. So I'm telling you guys now.. in the next few days.. I'm gonna let you know when my appt. is and be ready to keep me UP and remind me how stupid I was this time.. or better yet.. remind me to read this posting.. so I'm off to get the day going.. with my theme song for the day.. da da... da ta da.. da ta da da da.. (Eye of the Tiger) Love you all. and hope you are smiling from my crazy post. Debbie

3 More Months!!

Yea.. Dr. says I'm doing great.. CT Scan shows "stable" they say that's the labs terms.. but that is good. He tells me that we will continue the 3 month visits for another year.. typically the cancer can come back in the first 1-2 years.. I'm almost at my year anniversary... we left the appointment in good spirits today but emotionally drained.. should sleep good tonight.. hope to.. Again I thank you all for the prayers and extra prayers. I'm blessed to have you in my life. If ever any of you need a prayer.. let me know.. Love you all.. Debbie

Over the water works

Hi there.. so this morning I seem to be doing better.. not crying "over spilled milk" haha. Thank you ladies for your post yesterday.. you help lift my spirits. Better today, eyes a little puffy.. from yesterday and lack of sleep. Looking forward to being over the worrying.. I do this every time, then after the good news (praying) I hit the floor running again. Funny, I find myself feeling guilty that during my 3 months I get comfortable with life and sometimes don't get those things that are important to me done. Maybe this is god's way of reminding me. (he knows I'm special and need to be hit over the head every once in a while ... every 3 months is good...) today i'm going about my day.. tired but thankful for my gifts today. Thanks for being here. Debbie

Things you leave behind

Good Morning.. Thankful to be here today.. however, it's one of those days that feels like a pms day .. although I know that isn't it. it's those days where you could cry about anything.. hair won't do right, can't find my phone, the light turned red, straw won't go into my coke lid right.. you know. I'm certain it's this Dr. appt. coming up. So an explanation of the title for today.. I went to put some things in our lock box in the bank... and right when I was getting ready to close it up.. something told me to leave a little I Love You note in it for Curt. So I did. Then I get in my car and lose it.. you know the stories and country songs about getting something after that person has passed on.. guess that is what came to mind. Or it was a reminder to continue everyday to show your love and affection never knowing what the future holds. and maybe all this happened for me to share with you today to encourage you to do the same. I had to stop by and get a hug from Curt before I carried on with my day.. I'm just feeling the pressure of Thursday a little and had to release this morning. Thank you all for your prayers and being here for me. Love and blessings to you all. I'm not just saying it... I mean it. I love you. Debbie

2 am

Good Morning.. Well, it's 2 am and I'm here at my desk trying to get it organized.. can't sleep.. I'm sure it's because of the big week ahead. Don't feel nervous about seeing the doctor... but I'm betting 10 to 1 that's why I'm sitting here right now. I'm feeling good. Have been very busy with the girls over the past two weeks.. First Cheyenne was on vacation then she returned to school and Cassie came down for her spring break and went back home on Sunday. We had a lot of fun.. My brain is in overdrive now and my body doesn't feel like it's keeping up.. I'm admitting that I have to many irons in the fire and need to take a day to sort it all out.. admitting that is huge for me.. :-) So I'm taking a deep breath right now.. got a chance to talk it out with you guys and I'm gonna try to go to bed. Help a sista out this week and say a little prayer for me and the family. Love Debbie

CT Scan today

Well.. I'm here drinking my "stuff" for one hour so I can get my scan.. today is just the scan.. dr. appt. next week. still fighting this head cold a little.. I feel a little beat today.. could be cuz I'm a breakfast person and I didn't get to eat breakfast.. You can bet I'll be running out this door when I'm done to get me some lunch.. so say a little prayer for me.. I'll keep you posted. Love Debbie

Under the weather and back up again

Hey all.. sorry to leave you hanging.. I had the worst sinus infection that started over the weekend and by Monday my head felt like a bowling ball on my shoulders.. I was the first one at the clinic.. basically there when the lights came on.. lol.. got my antibotics and started them immediately.. doing much better now. not to mention my glands started to swell on my left side.. kinda scared me a bit.. because until now i haven't really been sick and I worried about my immune system going low... and those neck glands.. doctor didn't seem to be worried.. and all it better.. this week my step daughter Cassie is here visiting us for her spring break.. Chey is back in school.. we are trying to fill our time with fun stuff .. little harder for a teen (almost 16) than with Chey. But today we are going for a massage.. "bonus" for me.. :-) looking forward to it.. hope all is well with everyone. Thur. is my CT scan.. and next week my Dr. appt. doing ok with it at the time.. Love Debbie