My Stars Are Changing :-)

The other night, Curt and I were sitting on the porch visiting. I was looking out into the trees daydreaming I guess and something caught my eye. There was a star in the tree.. I looked closer and saw it was a yellow leaf.. the only yellow leaf on the tree. I thought for a minute and showed it to Curt.. telling him, look "my stars are changing" :-) I had to take a picture and share with you. I have to BELIEVE it's a sign of good things to come. And when the leaf falls, you can bet I get it and keep it. You know I think there are signs around us all the time.. we just don't take the time to see them. Take a moment each day to enjoy the world around you. Love Deb

Sorry I Left Ya Hanging

Hey there.. I'm so sorry I left you guys hanging. Past few days have been tough. Monday's radiation was ok.. laying on the table for a lengthy time was hard. My radiation Dr. got an appt. w/the neurologist the same day. He's gonna have to run test to figure out the numbness. Guess what, another MRI (ugh) the MRI from Fri. night ER didn't include a pelvic scan.. Oh, and you guys know how my Friday's go... My MRI's scheduled for Friday. Thur. I'll have an EMG where they will be testing my nerves to see if they can find something. So how bad is the numbness... Right side of right foot and calf.. it's a tingling numbness.. and entire pelvic area with no tingle.. just numb.. having trouble telling when I need to go to the bathroom.. somehow I still have control.. (thank god) I woke up this morning trying positive affirmation.. I'm about 70/30 at this time.. believing myself about 30%. I'll hopefully get there but I'm working really hard at it. So what's my schedule like.. Wed. radiation (a.m) Thur. neurologist (afternoon) Fri. MRI (7 am) kinda crazy.. guess I'll be going another week without knowing what's going on.

Short and Sweet

Hey there. Hope you all had a good weekend. I'm getting ready to go for my next round of radiation this morning so I gotta make this short.. I'll get back with you later today.. Promise. I visited the ER on Friday night numbness in several areas.. had to get an MRI (whew interesting) instead of keeping me through the weekend they decided to schedule an appt. this week with an EMG (think that's right) basically a nerve dr. Pretty scary on my part.. Todays radiation will be several hours.. they are implanting the seeds. Keep me in your prayers as I know you are. Thank you. Deb

I love you guys!

Today seems to be a better day.. I worry about what my body is going through right now.. can't help but worry it's the cancer. I've got a numbing/tingle in my right foot and have frequent shooting pains through the lower abdominal area and of course the usual pain in the bootie. I'm holding tight from calling the Dr. because I'll see the radiation Dr. on Monday. That's when I start my next round of radiation. I'm sure he'll do a check on me. My next CT Scan won't be until end of August as well my next meeting with my Cancer Dr. that will be when my radiation treatment will be done and we'll see what the next course of action will be.
I want to tell you all how much I love you, I love your friendship and I love your prayers.. It's like a marriage.. I don't think I tell you enough.. :-) Even on my hardest days one or several of you guys reach out to me with a special call, text, email or write me here on the blog... and they come at the most perfect time.. you all touch me in a special way ... those who know me and those who are getting to know me by my blog. I/we appreciate it so much and are blessed to have you here for support. Thank you.

Watch Pot Never Boils

I've sooo been looking forward to getting some relief from these hemorrhoids since my last radiation. Last week I made excuses as to why I still had them.. my body needed time to recover from the radiation. This week.. I thought any day now. Last night I was up late, soaking in the tub, praying and crying.. I know people get these all the time.. but is there an end.. I'm deep into a month now and I just want to be able to walk normally from place to place. Plan a day out of this house and not worry these will get me down or I'll get stuck in a public bathroom. I'm calling my dr. today to see if there is anything i haven't tried.. in hopes a little relief is in site.. I start radiation again on July 14. Thanks for being here for me to vent to.. I'll keep you posted. Debbie

Talks not cheap :-)

Ahhh.. no getting up and heading to Tyler for radiation.. that's really nice.. hung out in my scrappy clothes most of the day.. should have been cleaning the dang house and washing clothes.. but I think maybe tomorrow.. Cassie (my stepdaughter) has really stepped up and helped out.. I'm really tired of this continious pain in my (you know what) I've got every cream you can imagine.. just working through it a day at a time. Curt and I had a good visit this evening.. sharing our feelings and emotions about it all.. don't know what sparked it ... we've just been living the day to day.. and realized tonight how much is on our minds that we avoid talking about and should be talking about together.. this could be a new opening for us.. sharing our feelings and emotions regularly and not being scared to talk about it.. note to all couples.. talk.. it's very rewarding.

4th of July Weekend

Hello.. hope this finds you all doing well. We're having a great 4th weekend. Enjoying visiting with my family from Houston and local. We've been in the pool a couple of times.. kids I don't think have got out yet.. (there good and tender) (haha) Men are mudbogging this evening and us women are watching old sappy movies.. (The Notebook, Steel Magnolias, etc.) They are such good old movies.. :-) Still having my little side effect.. on a scale from 1-10 I'd say I'm at a 7 which is better than the 10 I've been suffering from. I pray this is a sign of good things to come. I'm off until 7/14 before I start my next radiation.. Dr. says they rarely see side effects. I'll have 5 treatments 2 a week. Keep safe.. Happy 4th of July.. I'll talk to you soon. Love always. Debbie