Goodbye Mom

Sigh. I'm sad but happy. Mom passed away on Monday, July 26th. She has been sick for sometime and she was truly tired. She is in a much better place now and can see (she was blind) and I know she will be watching over us. I can't remember a time, if ever that I was involved so heavily in funeral services.. but realize how important it is to have e.v.e.r.y. detail lined out.. to make things easier on the family. We were close to having everything prepared but then came the tiny details and then trying to include everyone's way of saying goodbye (songs, poems, letters, etc.) I've been pretty strong through this all but expect to crumble at some time or maybe just sleep a few days, that would be nice. I've been overwhelmed and overjoyed at all the people we have seen the last few days. Mom is smiling from heaven. Funny, she was afraid she wouldn't have anyone at her funeral. I'm sharing one of my favorite pictures I found of mom. Remember how precious life is my friends, if we open our eyes... we have DAILY reminders. God Bless.

Who Knew!!

Celebrate Good Times .... come on!! SO, Dr. visit went GREAT.. he told us that we hit the 2 year mark and that for cancer patients is a huge milestone! Who Knew.. It seems if cancer is to show it's ugly head once it's been found and treated it is VERY likely for it to do again within that 2 years. he told us we needed to celebrate.. well, for those that know me.. I'm celebrating all the time.. lol. heck.. just finished celebrating my birthday from February.. (just kidding) but ya know me.. However, after we got the news and walked out the door I started crying. Then Curt went off to work and I sat in the car and not just cried.. i was sobbing.. you know where you take those lil short breaths trying to get control of yourself. WHY.. I don't know.. tears of joy, relief, thankfulness, 2 years of worrying every 3 months.. I dunno. I got over it and with swollen eyes and all did a little shopping.. cuz dats what we do right. Curt wanted to throw a party but it seemed to quick.. and I was still a little down/up.. so i don't go back to see him till January.. that's a long time.. but i feel pretty good about it. well, real good about it. I thank all of you who have kept us in your prayers. Let's never stop praying for our friends and family. And remember to enjoy every moment in our lives. God bless you all. And I'm not done writing.. i'll be back to post.. probably just not daily.. lol.

It's that time again.

Well I go this week for my CT Scan.. then following week Dr. Visit. I'm in my typical anxious mode.. I've made my 2 year mark and what a blessed 2 years it has been. Never been a dull moment and living an amazing dream. I'm thinking if he sticks to what he told me last time and all is good from this visit.. we will be making a visit every 6 months. That would be pretty sweet but I just like knowing every 3 months.. regardless I pray for a good outcome and many more good years. Hope all is well with those who are left reading my blog. God Bless. Debbie

A Boost

Hello all.. been missing ya. Really have just filled my every waking hour with something. I think that is good.. but sometimes ask myself if I'm taking time to smell the roses. I may not "really" smell the roses.. but I think what I'm doing is the roses.. does that make sense? I just got finished watching an Oprah show with Bret Michaels and what happened with him and how he feels now... what's important to him.. and how he felt like he was living a great life but was even more energized to LIVE. THAT'S IT.. THAT'S ME... that many people who have been faced with a life threatening scare that either takes you down to the point where you give up or makes you LIVE LIFE like there is no tomorrow. Your energy and mind goes crazy.. I wish I could bottle this.. I wish I could explain it to all of you so you can feel it without going through something like I have.. maybe somehow all this rambling will make sense to you and you'll get the BIG PICTURE.. but you know what.. even I have found that.. watching this show with Bret was my little reminder.. SO.. don't get stagnant.. may God bless you and give you the glasses to see life the way he wants you to.

Checks... Mix

That's right.. a big ol bowl of CHECKS MIX.. what does that mean, checking everything on the 100 page list to make sure I have all I need to start the new business.. forms, CHECK.. darby, check.. gym key, CHECK CHECK.. I mean OMG !! (pardon the pun) I'm up at 4 am.. listening to Chey toss in the bed, Curt snoring.. dog knawing on her bone wondering when we are going back to bed. MIX - the emotions I'm feeling right now.. so excited.. to see who comes to sign up, that I'm actually doing this, the what ifs, then the worry, the stress, and I must say the exhaustion... I feel so bad for Curt and Chey and what they have had to deal with since I've been on this one track mind of starting the business AND continue working at school. but if you guys know me... you know I wouldn't have it any other way.. I must say I take the words LIVE LIKE THERE'S NO TOMORROW a little to far.. lol. Oh and as far as that darn ol cancer.. I really haven't had time to worry about it much.. (ya think..) Oh, I'm sooooo thankful for all my friends and family and my bloggers.. and my wonderful life. Remember to do those things you've always wanted to do... what a rewarding life I'm now living. Thank you lord. May God bless you.

Full Circle

I'm one of those people who will always say... everything happens for a reason. From being diagnosed with cancer, to the people you meet in your life. Sometimes if you slow down, you realize why those things have happened. Lately, it seems almost daily I catch myself smiling because I have seen things come around full circle. What an amazing and sometimes overwhelming realization. I know this seems really deep... but so very real for me. So... good, bad, ugly or sad it's for a reason.. Sit back and take it in every once in a while.. only to be amazed at God's work... Thank you all for the many blessings and support you give me on a daily basis. I hope I'm in your life... for a reason... to be there for you someday. :-)

OMG!!!

That's it!!! We're opening an All Star Gym in Van. Our own lil business.. Cheerleading (competitive) Tumbling.. and hope soon.. Hip Hop. I'm so excited. Now, the name.. OMG.. of course kiddos are going to think Oh My Gosh.. but there is meaning behind the name. Opportunities - given / Memories - made / Goals - achieved. (OMG) This is open to all kids.. No trying out. I've seen what it did for Cheyenne with her self-esteem and think if I could do that for other children.. then here it goes. I'm looking to incorporate Darby into this as well. Darby - Dream And Really Believe in Yourself.. so you see where I'm going with this.. anyway, I'm beside myself. I don't care how big or small it is, (don't tell Curt.. he's the money man) need to make enough to make rent and pay the bills. As long as the kids get something out of it.. I'm doing what I'm suppose to be doing. Loooooonnnnggg Liiiiivvvvvveeee the Bucket list !!!! Thank you lord for the gifts you have given me in life, may I do with them what you wish me to do. God bless. love Debbie