Short and Sweet

Hey there. Hope you all had a good weekend. I'm getting ready to go for my next round of radiation this morning so I gotta make this short.. I'll get back with you later today.. Promise. I visited the ER on Friday night numbness in several areas.. had to get an MRI (whew interesting) instead of keeping me through the weekend they decided to schedule an appt. this week with an EMG (think that's right) basically a nerve dr. Pretty scary on my part.. Todays radiation will be several hours.. they are implanting the seeds. Keep me in your prayers as I know you are. Thank you. Deb

I love you guys!

Today seems to be a better day.. I worry about what my body is going through right now.. can't help but worry it's the cancer. I've got a numbing/tingle in my right foot and have frequent shooting pains through the lower abdominal area and of course the usual pain in the bootie. I'm holding tight from calling the Dr. because I'll see the radiation Dr. on Monday. That's when I start my next round of radiation. I'm sure he'll do a check on me. My next CT Scan won't be until end of August as well my next meeting with my Cancer Dr. that will be when my radiation treatment will be done and we'll see what the next course of action will be.
I want to tell you all how much I love you, I love your friendship and I love your prayers.. It's like a marriage.. I don't think I tell you enough.. :-) Even on my hardest days one or several of you guys reach out to me with a special call, text, email or write me here on the blog... and they come at the most perfect time.. you all touch me in a special way ... those who know me and those who are getting to know me by my blog. I/we appreciate it so much and are blessed to have you here for support. Thank you.

Watch Pot Never Boils

I've sooo been looking forward to getting some relief from these hemorrhoids since my last radiation. Last week I made excuses as to why I still had them.. my body needed time to recover from the radiation. This week.. I thought any day now. Last night I was up late, soaking in the tub, praying and crying.. I know people get these all the time.. but is there an end.. I'm deep into a month now and I just want to be able to walk normally from place to place. Plan a day out of this house and not worry these will get me down or I'll get stuck in a public bathroom. I'm calling my dr. today to see if there is anything i haven't tried.. in hopes a little relief is in site.. I start radiation again on July 14. Thanks for being here for me to vent to.. I'll keep you posted. Debbie

Talks not cheap :-)

Ahhh.. no getting up and heading to Tyler for radiation.. that's really nice.. hung out in my scrappy clothes most of the day.. should have been cleaning the dang house and washing clothes.. but I think maybe tomorrow.. Cassie (my stepdaughter) has really stepped up and helped out.. I'm really tired of this continious pain in my (you know what) I've got every cream you can imagine.. just working through it a day at a time. Curt and I had a good visit this evening.. sharing our feelings and emotions about it all.. don't know what sparked it ... we've just been living the day to day.. and realized tonight how much is on our minds that we avoid talking about and should be talking about together.. this could be a new opening for us.. sharing our feelings and emotions regularly and not being scared to talk about it.. note to all couples.. talk.. it's very rewarding.

4th of July Weekend

Hello.. hope this finds you all doing well. We're having a great 4th weekend. Enjoying visiting with my family from Houston and local. We've been in the pool a couple of times.. kids I don't think have got out yet.. (there good and tender) (haha) Men are mudbogging this evening and us women are watching old sappy movies.. (The Notebook, Steel Magnolias, etc.) They are such good old movies.. :-) Still having my little side effect.. on a scale from 1-10 I'd say I'm at a 7 which is better than the 10 I've been suffering from. I pray this is a sign of good things to come. I'm off until 7/14 before I start my next radiation.. Dr. says they rarely see side effects. I'll have 5 treatments 2 a week. Keep safe.. Happy 4th of July.. I'll talk to you soon. Love always. Debbie

After effects of radiation

Ok, I'm now getting the after effects of radiation. I am soooo darn tired. I think I could sleep a whole day. I know that would probably be ok but I struggle to think I'm giving in or wasting a day. My OBGYN called in meds for my hemorrhoids it seems to be helping a little.. but each time I go it's a huge strain and takes a lot of energy. It's hard for me because I'm even to tired to smile.. and I try to put on this happy face.. I just know everyone sees right through it.. I hate not being me.. I'll keep praying to get better and maybe give in and take that long nap. Thank you for your prayers.. Love Debbie

Tues. June 1st

I'm off for 2 weeks!! It was nice not having to get up early this morning to head to treatments.:-) Pretty tired today so I'm thinking about taking a lil nap. It can't hurt to give in a little bit. Don't have a lot of big plans for the 4th but I don't mind. Your prayers have been good for me and our family.. I'm so thankful. I'm hoping over the next 2 weeks the side effects will calm down a little and I can get my strength back to be 100% me.. wishful thinking.. maybe but.. it could happen. Thanks for checking in.. i'll keep you posted on the progress.. Love Debbie