Eat, Sleep and be merry..

Who knew those words actually had meaning behind them.. Well, I started taking my vitamins today.. (yeah for Deb) I'm not the best of eaters (meat and taters girl) Dr.'s recommended I start taking them because of radiation.. AND who knew .. a good nights sleep gives me more energy the next day.. Hu.. that's my best brainstorming or computer time.. moms know this.. it's the best time.. kids asleep, dad's asleep... all is quiet in the house.. even when I'm in bed my heads running.. that's why I have a dry erase board in my room to get up and write those great ideas down.. so... I'm giving it a shot.. it couldn't hurt. :-) Radiation going ok.. this may be TMI but I frequent the bathroom more often.. so guess what... I've decided to repaint it.. change the scenery up a bit.. been wanting to do it.. now I'm more than ready... Talk to you again soon. Deb

Busy summer day

Hey all.. Had a busy day today.. radiation, checked my blood, weight (ha) after our visit to the dr. I took chey to see Kung Fu Panda.. cute movie.. didn't sleep well last night.. reason for being so tired today..making up for it today... I'm going to bed in just a few. Feeling ok, more frequent visits to the bathroom and occasional hot flash where I need a cool wash cloth. still ok. not use to being tired or considering a cat nap every once in a while.. I hope to spend tomorrow back home getting my things organizeed... I'll let you know how that goes. I'll check in with you tomorrow. Love and kisses..

Chey says - 6-10

Hey guys, thanks for being there for me. Thanks for keeping me happy with your comments. We just got our pictures from Disneyworld this is a fun picture with Mike W. from Monster's Inc. this was really fun I can't believe I did this. Love your friend Cheyenne.

After Dr. visit 6/9

My visit with Dr. Spencer was great! I love her.. she takes all the time I need to discuss everything and make me comfortable! (1) She didn't feel anything abnormal!!! (2) No restrictions (can swim, lift, etc.). (3) She explained how this cancer is more likely to restart in the same local area than others.. (could, but not as concerned) see, i was worried about every ache and pain being new cancer. I can't explain the relief I'm feeling!! I was afraid something was growing and nobody knew it. Think that was why I was so emotional. So I'm feeling good again.. at the top of the rollercoaster. :-) Once again proving that our prayers are working. I love you guys. Thank you.

Be Strong

Ok friends, SOS. I continue to remind myself to stay strong! Now I need definition.. because I feel like I'm failing. I question pains that shoot through my body or in the area it was found.. I panic in my head.. is that it?? is that the cancer somewhere else in my body.. I get irritated easily and then cry because I flew off the handle. (am I not being strong) It's said if you let cancer beat you it will.. but if you stay strong it can help you beat cancer.. are these things i'm going through showing signs of weakness or not being strong? The after effects of radiation start around 2-3 weeks, affecting organs in the area of treatment.. for me, include ovaries (hormones). So I'm reaching out for strength.. by tomorrow, I may be a cheerleader again.. (haha) your emails and postings keep my brain busy. Thank you for listening. Love Debbie

Hormones !! :-@

Oh my god.. i think it's hit. My mood changes every 5 minutes. (EVERY emotion you can imagine... lesser of them all is the happy go lucky me..) worse than PMS... I'm hoping Curt and Cheyenne can cope with this.. Glad I'm going to the Dr. tomorrow!! I've even gone back online looking up my diagnosis.. (done with that, i promise!) I fear the ones closest to me will suffer my temperments and not be able to understand or handle it.. I've become very vocal in my thoughts.. I feel like that movie "Liar Liar" :-) where if you ask me or I feel it... I say it. I read a quote at the end of my friend Shelly's email that makes me feel a little better about what I'm going through. it reads "Be who you are, say what you feel. Those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind". I pray for help with my emotions and strength for my friends to hang in there for me.

Half Empty or Half Full

Some might say I've only been through 8 treatments. Me, I'm sayin I'm 1/2 way there! Only 16 more before they decide what to do with me next. During my radiation, I find myself counting the seconds the machine stays on. wierd hu.. guess i'm wondering if each week i'll get more exposure.. my friend tells me I could experience a few side effects after a couple of weeks. A couple friend of ours (who we met during lamaze class 8 years ago) works at Tyler Cancer Center they greet me everyday, makes it easier to go, it's like dropping in to visit them at work. More truth to "theres a reason things happen" and a reason god brings certain people into your life. (now that's deep) You kinda get familiar with faces at the center too.. 1st couple of times starts with a smile and then conversation. Course me, I never meet a stranger.... but hesitant to ask right off the bat what kind of cancer they have, etc. Well, tonights been like a dear diary night.. hope you enjoy the read.. Love you all. Debbie